In this life, I lived it

In the life I have - I lived it.

I have made many mistakes, I know my weaknesses

my tumultuous blunders that played on the psyche

Yet in this life, I have lived it.

In this life someone touched my heart

It has affected me

in how I lived through the years

its mark embedded as a good sanskar resulting in

a life I live fully without regret

When faced with logic or emotion

I chose emotion each and every time

not one known to toe the line, I bucked reason

So at times I lived my life in pain and remorse

It is a hard road to live passionately

you are disappointed constantly

you except too much, won't settle for too little

in living this life I live fully and completely

I have tried to squelch it, this passion

the creativity, the longing, the need

it won't go, it hides in the waiting and wanting

for me to live it  live it passionately this life now

I have laid this heart bare, in a gooey mess

only to be drop kicked in life's other philosophies

these heart felt feelings gouged insanely deep

even in this life I have yet to live- it waits for me

These new heartaches, I embrace you 

because to not feel is to not live

I choose true heartfelt anything over ennui

I live life, I live this beautiful life I have

So take your heart and ardent zeal with you

your truth and soul felt intentions deserving proclamation

shine forth with all the precious offering you can bestow

especially as I live this life yet lived.